Just ranting

Okay, so I'm going to go on a bit of a rant. Just warning you:
I cannot for the life of me understand why people are not there for their own children. When you have a child, your life isn't about you anymore, it is about that child. When you have a child, you gain a responsibility and an obligation to that little person. This means that you nurture, care for, and love that person with everything you have in you, no matter what circumstances may arise. There is no room for selfishness when you have children.
I know that there was a period when Kristen and I broke up where I wasn't there for Wesley how I should have been, and I regret that more than I can say; there is no justification. But I make it my goal now to be there for him and for his mother whenever they need me. I will do anything in my power to make sure that Wesley is loved, cared for, and nurtured until the day that I die. That little boy has so much of my heart that I could never envision life without him. He may not biologically be mine, but I can guarantee that I couldn't love him any more if I had birthed him myself.
I am not here to criticize, but it just baffles me when people say that they don't want to spend time with their own children because they have 'something better to do'. There is nothing better for me than spending time with my son. I can understand needing "you time" because we are all people and we all need an escape from life every once and a while, but when you simply refuse to see your child out of sheer spite for the person with whom you are no longer romantically involved or for purely selfish reasons, that is not okay, it's shitty.
I will never again miss out on an opportunity to see Wesley. It already kills me that I am not there for him all the time, but I want him to always know that I am someone who will always be there and who will love him unconditionally, regardless of my relationship with Kris.
I wish I could slap him and make him realize that his daughter should come first in ever decision he makes in his life from here forward. I just hope that he will come to his sense eventually and realize how much of a gift this child is to him. Hopefully he pulls his head out of his ass soon, before he loses her forever.