Everything is dark,
everybody’s here,
all I gotta do is get the words right
when the microphone is near.
Shoot off all my thoughts,
maybe make it rhyme,
try to be as honest with myself to them
without committing the crime.
I know that I can’t put it the way
that a better-read person could do,
so I sacrifice my talent for the truth.

So let it burn, let it fall,
let it drain the blood from my legs as I crawl.
And let it circulate right through a vein
that’s never gonna rupture when I fall.

Everybody screams,
then everybody stops.
I just wanna have a little moment when the silence gets me off.
Let me say my peace,
get out of your hair.
All I wanted was to be the backrest
on your broken, hopeless chair.
And I know that the living are lifeless,
and if the doctors could euthanize half of the things
that make me become the person that I hate...

So let it burn, let it fall,
let it drain the blood from my legs as I crawl.
And let it circulate right through a vein
that’s never gonna rupture when I fall.

Everything is dark,
everybody’s here,
all I gotta do is get the words right
when the microphone is near.

Forget It- Breaking Benjamin

It's a crime you let it happen to me,
never mind I let it happen to you.
I don’t mind, forget it, there's nothing to lose
but my mind and all the things I wanted.

Every time I get it, I throw it away,
it's a sign, I get it, I wanna stay.
By the time I lose it I'm not afraid
I'm alive but I can surely fake it

How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me?
You're the part of me that I don't wanna see.

Forget it

There's a place, I see you, follow me,
just a taste of all that might come to be.
I'm alone but holding breath you can breathe
to question every answer coming.

Just fade away, please let me stay
caught in your way.

Forget it

It's a crime you let it happen to me
I don’t mind, I love it, I'm easy to please.
Never mind, forget it, just memories
on a page inside a spiral notebook.

Just fade away, please let me stay
caught in your way.
I can live forever here.

Forget it

I can live forever here

I Move for Only the Best

In recent times, many things have changed. Many things have come and gone, and some things have stayed the same. We have gone back on our promises, fallen from the safety of our morals, and walked far away from all of our ideas for what was supposed to be. But through all of that change, all of that animosity, and all of that hurt, I was always capable of loving you. I like to tell myself that you were always capable of loving me too, but different circumstances call for different thoughts, I suppose.

God knows that I have failed in more ways than one, but my love for you has never ceased. This is something that I want you to always be completely sure of. Even if you have no more love for me, I will always keep a place for you in my heart, this I promise. I know that I was the one who left, and I know that you say that I have destroyed too much to ever come back. I know that things are different; they have to be. When it all happened, I couldn't say when I'd be back, but I didn't say that I would go forever. I am here, and I will always be here.

It is true that sacrifices must be made to move onward towards the future. I have sacrificed a lot in the past, but one thing I am not willing to let go of is my love for you. I am all too aware that the elements of my love have to change, and I am making a promise to myself right now, as I write this, to try harder to change the way that I love you. I am not one to let go of things easily, so I know that it wont go down without a fight, but I promised you that I would do anything for you, and I will stick to that promise. I will love you in the only way that I feel like I can love you; as my best friend. You are, and forever will be, my best friend.

I don't think that we are at a place yet in our relationship where we can just be friends, and I'm not entirely sure that you even want my friendship at this point. We have a lot of things that were left unsaid, and a lot of things that may never be told to one another, but I can only hope that someday you will realize that I am here, through it all, only for you. And even if I have to love you silently, from far away, that is what I will do. I cherish you, I respect you, and I am proud of you, and it is for those reasons that I will always love you.

So if you need me, I am always here. I will not judge you, I will not abandon you, and I will not hurt you ever again. I am here, as a friend, wherever I can be. You are my heart and my soul, and that I something I can never let go of. You will never lose me as an ally in this life. You mean more to me than you could ever know, and I love you, always and forever, no matter what.

...Who Is She?

AKS: Counter-Psychology.

A woman, of grace,
says I.
I see her, and since the days began,
I adored her.
Her eyes bright, her smile worth the world,
yet she did not see it.

A woman, of kindness,
says I.
I converse with her, and since the days began,
I enjoyed her.
Her laugh cute, her voice worth the stars,
yet she, again, did not see it.

A woman, of beauty,
says I.
I touch her, and since the days began,
I liked her.
A different form of like, so to speak;
enjoyment far beyond belief,
at least in this world.

A woman, of mystery,
says I.
I find her when she hides.
And since the time began, where we shared our stories,
we revered each other.
I hoped to never lose this woman.

But alas, these things happen.

A woman of weakness,
says I.
People have tortured her pure soul,
her pain not made for this world.
Why is this so?
I may have tried to protect her, but it is to my own undoing.
What have I done? I tried so hard
yet she did not believe in me.

Darkness Lies

I watch the rain through the window.
I think about the things that are happening in the world outside.
I wonder if I can live another night
with knowing only what is on the inside.

These walls are my haven
and these walls are my nightmare.
I don't like the people that I see outside,
so I stay
locked away
every day.

Inside, it is just me and my heart.
And believe me when I say
that my heart is my my heads worst enemy.
And believe me when I say
that my head is my hurts best friend.

The hollow night fades into something so desolate.
It is no more and no less than it was the night before.
The darkness brings with it a sense of light;
a light in my mind that my heart tries to savor
but my head closes out.

Just one hand is all I need
to pull me out of this reality.
But of all the grasps I am offered,
the only one I really need is so far out of my reach.

So I leave with the darkness,
moving towards that place where I always hide.
And I'm here for the wishing, here for the waiting
but I am here for nothing else
because the darkness lies.

Crazy for You

Sometimes I think that forgetting would be easier, but that's only when I forget that remembering is the only thing that I have.

Believe me, you aren't the first person to have called me crazy, and I'm sure that you wont be the last. I've heard it before for many reasons, and I'm hearing it now for many different reasons. And I think that, after a while, I finally started believing it too. I look at the words that I say and the things that I do and I think to myself about how crazy it all must seem from the outside; especially to her. I am just a hopeless, lovesick fool who is letting everything pass me by with my clouded emotions and irrational wishes. At least, that's what everyone tells me. But here, on the inside, this is all that I know, and it's the only thing that looks right.
I know that I might seem crazy, but the way I see it, with all of the brokenness in the world, there is plenty of room for a little craziness laced with good intention. With all of the loneliness in the world, I think the broken hearts need a little companionship. So maybe I am crazy for staying around, crazy for the things that I would do for her, and crazy with the way that I feel. But maybe, just maybe, crazy is the only thing that I can offer the world.

Waiting for my Real Life to Begin- Colin Hay

Any minute now, my ship is coming in,
I'll keep checking the horizon.
And I'll stand on the bow
and feel the waves come crashing,
crashing down, down on me

And you said,
"Be still, my love,
open up your heart,
let the light shine in."
Don't you understand?
I already have a plan;
I'm waiting for my real life to begin.

When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened.
But in my dreams, I slew the dragon
and down this beaten path
and up this cobbled lane,
I'm walking in my own footsteps once again.

And you say,
"Just be here now,
forget about the past,
your mask is wearing thin."
Baby, just let me throw one more dice,
I know that I can win.
I'm waiting for my real life to begin.

Any minute now, my ship is coming in.
I'll keep checking the horizon
and I'll check my machine,
there's sure to be that call.
It's gonna happen soon,
oh so very soon,
it's just that times are lean.

And you say,
"Be still, my love,
open up your heart,
let the light shine in."
But don't you understand?
I already have a plan;
I'm waiting for my real life to begin.

On a clear day
I can see, see for a long way...

Rekindled Love Affair

"What do you think he would say to us right now if we were in session with him?"
"He would probably ask what each of us wants."
"And we would say... 'we don't know.'"
"And he would ask, 'what are you afraid of, Tina?'"
"Hm... Fucking it all up."
"What else are you afraid of, Tina?"
"I'm afraid of what everyone will think of us, how they'll will judge us, how hurt Jodi will be."
"She already knows there's something wrong."
"Did you tell her about us?"
"God, no. I've been such a fucking coward. And, you know, but it's not like we really...I don't know. It was never just...easy."
"What do you mean, never easy?"
"Well we don't share the same values, Jodi and I."
"Do you think we share the same values?"
"Of course I do. I mean, I think that's why we were able to parent together when things were the most acrimonious between us. It's so fucking rare, Tina. We both care about the quality of life. And I like the choices you make, the things that you surround yourself with. There is attention to beauty, and I think that's important. And I'm comfortable with the people in your world and I think you're comfortable with the people in mine."
"We like the same people."
"And we dislike the same people."
"Yes."
"We'd both rather stay in on New Years Eve.
What is it that you're afraid of?"
"I'm afraid that I'm destructive. That if I have something good, I feel compelled to destroy it it.
"Look, I am not so pure and innocent, okay; I was awful. When I was with Henry, I was flailing. Look how I treated you, I used Angelica against you, I was...
"I love you."
"...I was despicable."
"I love you. I have no doubt about that. I'm just afraid that..."
"That everything you're feeling right now is because we're not really together? It's an affair."
"No."
"But it is."
"For me, when I really search myself, it doesn't feel like an affair. For me, it feels like I'm coming home."

"I don't know what to do."
"You're in love with Jodi, right?"
I adore her, and I respect and admire her but..."
"But what?"
"It doesn't really compare..."
"I miss you."

Goodbye Again- Vertical Horizon

I'm on the outside looking in,
what do I see?
So much of this left to begin,
where would I be?
I'm on the outside looking in,
cover me through this night.

I guess I don't know what's left to say,
but hear me out.
All of the dreams of yesterday
keep breaking me down.
What's on the outside, can you say,
or am I getting carried away?

I'm getting on, what's the use?
You know how I get.
I can't decide which is the truth,
at least not yet.
I have the feeling that it's you,
but what can be said, alone in this room?

Who wants you now?
Maybe somebody else.
I'll wait around,
maybe you'll forget you were ever here
but maybe you'll forget you were ever, never here.

I'm on the outside looking down,
what do I see?
So much of this cold in the ground,
where would I be?
On the outside, looking down,
cover me before you go.

Your falling out,
I'm falling in,
so it's goodbye again.
It's way past time
for one last try ,
so it's goodbye again.
Goodbye again.

The Replacement

There was once a time where you said you were mine
I was that one you said you could never replace.
But the damage is done and now I'm only the one
that you blame for the tears on your face.

It took you no time at all just to sit back and fall
into another one's love for a while.
Now I am stuck here and it all seems so clear
that you faked all our love with that smile.

So yes, I am down, and when you come around
I get back on my feet just to see
if you'll be the one to get my hurting undone
and let me be the replacement of me.

Cold As You- Taylor Swift

You have a way of coming easily to me
and when you take, you take the very best of me.
So I start a fight because I need to feel something
and you do what you want, 'cause I'm not what you wanted.

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sitting here, thinking it through,
I've never been anywhere cold as you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray,
and I stood there loving you and wished them all away.
And you come away with a great little story
of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

You never did give a damn thing honey
but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told anybody
if I died, died for you
I died for you.

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
Every smile you fake is so condescending, counting all the scars you made.
And now that I'm sitting here, thinking it through,
I've never been anywhere cold as you.

Tell Me A Lie- Griffin House

Dressing my voice up on the phone
underneath the envy rotting my bones.
I’d do anything to get you alone,
if just for awhile.

Blame it on the way that I talk,
you can blame it on the way that I look,
you can blame it on the stuff that I drank,
and the pills that I took.

Tell me a lie,
if it’s true.
Have you done all the things
I never wanted you to?

Baby, is she all that you dreamed?
I think about you every night that I go to sleep.
You’re laying there wrapped up in her arms
how we used to be.

Are you seriously falling in love,
or do you do it just to get back at me?
I deserve to take it, I guess,
I just wish we could be.

Tell me a lie,
if it’s true.
Have I done all the things
I never wanted to do?

I know you hate it when I play you my songs
because there's not one of them when you weren’t involved.
I bet you wish I’d take the issue at hand
and just get it solved.

Tripping myself up on my words
Writing checks that I couldn’t cash
I rip ‘em up and throw ‘em away
Then dig ‘em out of the trash

You won’t believe me if I promise again,
but I’m telling you that I can change.
I’d scream it at the top of my lungs,
but it’s out of my range

Tell me a lie if it’s true.
Have you done all the things
I never wanted you to?
Tell me a lie if it’s true.
Have I done all the things
I never wanted to do?
Have I lost the only chance I had with you?

I remember when we fell in love;
you were the one I thought I'd never meet
I taste your words on the tip of my tongue;
they were soft and they were sweet.
But we ran into some trouble,
we knew our love was slowly dying.
And when we said the words that ended us,
I headed out toward Liberty Line.
The night was some kind of quiet,
I could almost here myself think.
I felt my heart was like a heavy flood,
I'm gonna float or I'm gonna sink.
I was thinking we could settle down,
start a family, and start a life.
I was only two days short
of asking you if you would be my wife.
But we ran into some trouble,
we met that enemy that we call time.
Threw my guitar in the back of my car
and headed out toward Liberty Line.

~Griffin House

Missed My Chance- Griffin House

Passed through Main Street yesterday
and, oh, this town just isn't the same.
Looked in the window and it was gone,
all those tables I'd written on
were vanished as if I had never been there.
Like the poets and prophets who can't find the words
so they stare.
And all that made sense has somehow turned askew.
I missed my chance with you.

There were seconds, then minutes, then years that I could not breathe.
In the Pere Lachaise with the hammer the chisel and the stone.
Now I've bartered and begged for what I believed
and I saw that the name engraved was my own.
Now there's nothing so peaceful as when I met you.
and there's nothing so lonely as when it was through.
And the words "I'm not here anymore" echo into
"I missed my chance with you"

Had love play so many tricks on me,
I've always felt cheated that you'd make me leave.
Like taking my sight after letting me see,
I found out love had something up it's sleeve.
Leave me scattered like leaves by winds that never blew.
When I captured the starts in the palm of my hand,
it was true;
I'd just give them back
to you.

I was eighteen, but just for one year.
I always knew one day I'd end up here.
And the sands have now fallen to the evening of my afternoon.
I'm always so ready to stay, and always leaving too soon.
And I don't want to think about it now, but I do
And my spirit is restless, because I know it's true,
I missed my chance with you.

An Inadequate Fairy Tale

I sit on the curb and think fondly of the nights
where we both knew of love and we both did it right.
But now you're both burning with these lies of delight
a feeling that neither are willing to fight.

The world goes by through passing glances,
with solitude and with sweet romances,
through dreaming dreams and midnight dances
through passing time with no second chances.

And through their teeth they mumble lies;
those three-word notions in a quaint disguise.
That tongue-in-cheek thing that I despise,
on the broken wings of compromise.

Hand in hand they walk along,
dancing to that "happy" song.
All the while knowing the feeling is wrong.
Wanting to leave but not being that strong.

The night starts to fall as they open the door
thinking 'maybe this can last just a little while more'.
but both leave their hearts lying dead on the floor
for the love of the one that they think they adore.

I see them walk towards me with their wounded-heart style,
both of them reeking with internal denial.
She looks to me quickly with her half-hearted smile
as if giving me her soul to put it on trial.

I'm not one to judge but I think that it's true,
even though I would have never expected it from you.
You pretend to understand things that you haven't thought through
and you ride on the backs of the others who lie too.

As you walk through the darkness with your hand in hers
I cry in the dark, wishing my heart were with yours
and the feelings pass by, drenched in millions of blurs
and I think to myself how this often occurs.

That I know her better than she ever could see
and she tells me she's better now that she's not with me.
But in this broken heart sanctuary, I see three:
her love-longing future, her past, and then me.

When you lose your art, you lose your passion.
When you lose your passion, you lose your individuality.
When you lose your individuality, you lose yourself.

Her skin is kind of sort of brownish, pinkish, yellowish white.
Her eyes are a brownish red, but they look orange in the night.
Her hair is a reddish brown, but it's darker when it's wet.
And all of the colors she is inside
have not been invented yet.

When I die, I wish to come back as one of her tears.
What man would be so lucky
as to have been conceived in her heart,
born in her eyes,
live on her cheeks,
and die at her lips?

All I do is act on my passions and they call it sin.
All I do is tell the truth and they call me a hypocrite.
All feel is pain and sorrow and they call it love.
All I do is pour my heart out to empty pages and they call it poetry.
~Benito Behar

When you come to the end of everything you know, and the next step is into the depths of darkness of the great unknown, you must believe one of two things: Either you will step out onto firm ground or you will be taught to fly.
~Claire Norris

It's no secret that a conscience can sometimes be a pest.
It's no secret, ambition bites the nails of success.
Every artist is a cannibal, every poet is a thief,
all kill their inspiration and sing about the grief.

Water Landing- Third Eye Blind

When will I start to learn,
I'm bleeding in this game?
Cause she uses words like bandages
but the wounds remain the same.
And I hope you find that, through this endless wandering,
I'm missing you for so long.

You're a question mark and a scar,
you twist me up like a tourniquet
until I don't know who we are.
Chasing after you won't change a thing,
and I hope you make it through this endless wandering.
Changed everything I know,
but she won't let me come
and she won't let me go.
Let me come inside.

I was late and my face was wet,
toe up on a private jet,
spiraling down with a cigarette,
where are we going now?
I forget.
Because I have to get it all
but it takes a toll.
Well I guess you'll have to grow a soul.
Dark side giving me such a pull,
and if its a water landing,
then it's a water landing.

Put on your life vest only if told to do so.
Well I'm telling you now,
strap it across your chest,
prepare yourself for impending death.

You and me are nose-diving.
At the speed of whiplash, life passes by
in an endless plane crash.
I muffled "I love you" through an oxygen mask
on my face; brace.
And the cabin erupts with religious conversions,
God's sick joke as we lose the engines.
Some people scream and some people are gracious ,
and the reason's the same;
because the sky outside is so spacious.
So if it's a water landing,
then it's a water landing,
and it's coming inside.

I Can't Let You Go- Matchbox 20

I'll stick around and see how bad it gets.
I'll settle down and deal with old regrets.
You know I adore you.

I can't let you go,
you're part of my soul
you're all that I know,
can't let you go.

Is it better now?
Do you feel like all is fair?
Can we work it out
so it's easier for me to bear?
Because life, it can blind you.

Down from the edge,
I can see where we end.
I'd give up all my days to go back.
There was all this wonder
and all this magic.
Is all this wonder
over and done?

If love were a whisper,
what would I give you to speak?
Maybe you're out of my reach.

I can't let you go,
you're part of my soul
you're all that I know,
I just can't let you go.

Run Away- Live

Looks like I lost my will to carry on my friend, she said.
And you can hear it in my whispered cries for love.
I need your blissful touch
to carry me away again,
so can we roll tonight?
Roll through your desert,
can we start over?

And just run away,
run away tonight.
It ain't no victory, but I don't care,
I don't care if it's wrong or right.
We can just run away,
run away tonight.
It ain't no victory but I don't care,
I don't care if it's wrong or right.

Looks like I lost my will to carry on my friend, she said
I'm like a posse that's been riding for days.
I've got the scars to prove that love has had it's day
and it's way with me,
so can we roll tonight?
Roll through your desert,
can we start over?

And just run away,
run away tonight.
It ain't no victory, but I don't care,
I don't care if it's wrong or right.
We can just run away,
run away tonight.
It ain't no victory but I don't care,
I don't care if it's wrong or right.

The best three hours of my week are the three hours on Wednesday afternoons that I get to spend with my boy. I love him more than anything.



This poem is for the one I love
more than life itself,
the one who always has my heart,
even when my life is Hell.
The one I hold to me so close,
forever he's my number one;
this poem is for my one and only,
my favorite boy,
my son.

Although I may not see you
quite as much as I would like
just know you're always in my heart,
and you're always on my mind.
I never thought that I could love
a person such as you,
but now I know my love is yours,
and forever it will be true.

No matter where our path's may take us,
I'm always by your side,
forever, son, you are my world,
my love, my joy, my pride.
I'll hold your hand and won't let go
as into the world we run.
You'll always be inside my heart,
my favorite boy,
my son.

Journey to the End

I'm breaking to bend
on this perilous journey to the end
of when I break for you;
I'll take it for you.
And if all goes well, the years will steal my soul away;
redirect my heart.
Next time you see me, I'll be out of tune,
my mind off of you.
If only this drink in my glass could make that true.

Our tender bleeding, save a taste for me.
And if I die believing that I'll change in time,
just give me freedom to release.
Our love was more than just a teenage tragedy,
or at least that's what I see.
You were the soul in me.

Everything we've both been through
that I'm a bastard for remembering
keeps me going towards the end.
There's nothing of your love that I'll never miss
but I can't go on remembering like this.
Because your sweet somebody's touch must be better
than this nobody's love.

So I hope you explore new love along the way,
and I'll be here if you want to come back someday,
walking along on this journey to the end.

Second Hand Songs of Guilty Souls

I watch the clock in yearning,
typical with time,
a suffocating proof
of the time when you were mine.

Time's a best friend's enemy
when my watch is full of you.
The second hand's a knife of pain;
I watch it cut right through.

I can't be your proof
or your secret there to save
that broken hearts leave saddened scars
while killing on the way.

In showing that I love you
I have shown my weakest side.
But love is a constant battle
between solitude and pride.

The second hand ticks faster
as I watch you walk away.
Now time is moving slower
each and every day.

Let's romance our serenity
instead of chasing time.
Let's go back to that place
where I was yours and you were mine.

The moments that I capture
in my prepubescent brain
are filled with constant yearning
for just the presence of your name.

And when you look into my eyes
you see a constant blush,
but time is ever changing,
puts us in a constant rush.

So slow down the fastest clock
and sit beneath my sheets
because the second hand can't get us
if we're both too out of reach.

Sober- Butch Walker

Can you please, remind me how you feel?
This emptiness is real, I can't bear the thought of it.
And please, remind me how to smile,
I lost track after awhile,
Is happiness so hard to get?

Is it me, or is this over?
As I got sober, I watched you fade away.
Is it me, or is this ending?
As I was pretending, I watched you fade away.

I didn't know that time could move so slow,
when you've got nowhere to go, the silence is so deafening.
Waking up, on the wrong side of your mind,
how could I have been so blind, to see I'm losing everything?

Is it me, or is this over?
As I got sober, I watched you fade away.
Is it me, or is this ending?
As I was pretending, I watched you fade away.

Sooner or later, we've got to stop this elevator.
You go your way and I'll go mine, I'm sure that I'll be fine.

Now is it me, or is this over?
As I got sober, I watched you fade away.
Is it me, or is this ending?
As I was pretending, I watched you fade away.
I watched you fade.

Thank You

You took my hand,
you kissed me in the moonlight.
You took my heart
as we danced beneath the twilight.
And the stars
shined brightly in the sky.
In my heart
forever you were mine.
I never could let go.

You took my smile
and you turned it to perfection.
You took my arms
and pulled them in the right direction.
And every time
I started feeling I was falling
You were mine
and everything was alright
I never could let go.

And I never got to thank you
for all the times you loved me
all the times you saved me from myself.
And I know that I have lost you
but I want to say that, baby, no one else
never anyone else
will take your place.

Peaceful Memory

And I look back on this life of ours
capturing the ups and downs of love.
We all want something we can't have
and I've wanted you from the start.

The pictures full of laughs and smiles
now break my heart and I wonder why
I ever thought it would be okay
to just let it all go.

I have to bind my hands
just to keep from calling you, breaking down.
I have to bind my heart
just to keep from dying inside.
I never seem to see
the fine line between friend and foe.

I don't know who I try to fool,
pretending I'm not in love with you
And the memories are now all that remain
the memories that kill me every day.

Just one thing stands between me and you
and that one things is something
that you don't want to try to move.
So I just sit in silence another day,
forever hoping you'll look back with me.

Never Say Never- The Fray

Some things we don't talk about,
rather do without
and just hold a smile.
We're falling in and out of love,
ashamed and proud of,
together all the while.

You can never say never
why we don't know when,
time and time again,
younger now then we were before.
Don't let me go.

Picture you're the queen of everything,
as far as the eye can see
under your command.
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling,
I'll steady your hand.

You can never say never
why we don't know when
time, time, time again,
younger now then we were before.
Don't let me go.

We're falling apart
and coming together again and again.
We're coming apart,
but we'll pull it together,
pull it together,
together again.

Don't let me go...

Fallen- Sarah McLachlan

Heaven bend to take my hand
and lead me through the fire.
Be the long awaited answer
to a long and painful fight

Truth be told, I've tried my best
but somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
and the cost was so much more than I could bear.

Though I've tried, I've fallen,
I have sunk so low,
I messed up,
better I should know.
So don't come around here
and tell me "I told you so..."

We all begin with good intent,
love was raw and young.
We believed that we could change ourselves,
the past could be undone.
But we carry on our backs the burden
time always reveals
in the lonely light of morning,
in the wound that would not heal.
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
that I've held so dear.

Heaven bend to take my hand,
nowhere left to turn.
I'm lost to those I thought were friends,
to everyone I know.
They turn their heads, embarrassed,
pretend that they don't see,
but it's one missed step,
one slip before you know it.
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed.

Though I've tried, I've fallen,
I have sunk so low,
I messed up,
better I should know.
Please don't come around here,
and tell me I told you so...

Looking Back

I sit here wishing what we all sometimes wish; I wish I could go back to February 26th. Or maybe even June 8th, or May 4th. A time when I didn't know how to show that I cared. I know now, but now is too late...

My arms are open wide,
have a look inside my heart.
You'll see that it breaks for you,
you'll see that I really can love you.

Leave me alone, just go away,
come back to me, I'm so afraid.
But with the ode you are determined to live by,
I know you'll never love me again.

It hurts to reach for you when I'm down,
waiting for my turn to come around.
Just hold your breath and spare me,
I'll silence the harsh words of my heart.

The people around here are so good at lying
but this time, baby, I'm not buying.
Love is more than just one of their words,
they're breaking hearts to make the papers.

But I can't hurt you anymore.

Passion Fails

Tell me what I did so wrong,
tell me how to make it right.
I know I could have made it better then,
but back then, I didn't know how.

I knew that we were broken
so I had to make the call.
My heart kept shaking, burning, breaking
so I just threw it at the wall.

I didn't mean to shut you out
I just couldn't let you see
everything you do to me.
I couldn't let you see this darkest side
of everything I try so hard not to be.
It's so cold in here.

We try to stay blind to everything that happens inside
but that makes for quite a lonely home.
Who do you love when you're coming undone?

So I'll turn up the volume on the speakers,
tell you everything I should have said before;
everything that mattered
that doesn't matter anymore.
But I seem to think more than I act on things.
It's so dark in here.

I've made mistakes that I put into writing
and looking back now, I am all the while crying.
Preoccupied with selfish thought,
my brooding soul is passionate love.

I'll still miss you, I'll still love you,
I'll keep walking through this life alone;
I want for no one else.

I'm sorry for letting you fall so far,
I'm sorry for the grace that I stole from your arms.
Just hit me harder next time, maybe I'll fade away forever.

Love's Surrender

And you drink the wine from your glass
as the twilight band plays our song.
And I hope that feeling will pass
because a hundred proof is not that strong.

I made a mess of everything
and those thoughts they collapse my mind
and my friends all say I'm crazy
but I'll take crazy over broken, anytime.

Does it take away the pain that I left here?
Does it fade away the memories,
the broken hopes and broken dreams?
Did you ever even miss me?
Your love is gone, or so it seems.

But I can still hear you breathing
from the picture on my wall.
So how far gone can you possibly be?
How far down do I have to fall?

And you said "please, please don't follow.
Please, please don't you dare."
You were busy walking on a tightrope,
too old to notice and too young to care.

Does it take away the pain that I left here?
Does it fade away the memories,
the broken hopes and broken dreams?
Did you ever even miss me?
Our love is gone, or so it seems.

The subtle, hollow moonlight,
drowning in its own grace
reminds me of your steady hands,
reminds me of your gorgeous face.
And even in the midnight darkness
I still see your tears and your hand and your heart.
How can I miss you still
when all we are is a world apart?

And I'll still say the wrong words
because I'm a coward to your love.
And how do I move on
and where do we go from here, my love?
Maybe if we lie...

Does it take away the pain that I left here?
Does it fade away the memories,
the broken hopes and broken dreams?
Did you ever even miss me?
Your love is gone, or so it seems.

But I'm still here
singing love's surrender.
Sweetly whispering sounds
into the twilight band's glass.

Without You- Breaking Benjamin

Search for the answers I knew all along.
I lost myself, we all fall down.
Never the wiser of what I've become,
alone I stand, a broken man.

All I have is one last chance,
I wont turn my back on you.
Take my hand drag me down,
if you fall then I will too
and I can save what's left of you.

Say something new,
I have nothing left,
I can't face the dark without you.
There's nothing left to lose,
the feeling never ends,
I can't face the dark without you.

Follow me under and pull me apart
I understand there's nothing left.
Pain so familiar and close to the heart
no more, no less, I wont forget.

Come back down, save yourself,
I can't find my way to you
and I can't bare and face the truth.

Say something new,
I have nothing left,
I can't face the dark without you.
There's nothing left to lose,
the feeling never ends,
I can't face the dark without you.

I wanted to forget,
I'm trying to forget,
don't leave me here again,
I'm with you forever, the end.

Say something new,
I have nothing left,
I can't face the dark without you.
There's nothing left to lose,
the fight never ends,
I can't face the dark without you.

Holding the hand that holds me down,
I forgive you, can't forget you, the end.
Holding the hand that holds me down...

State Line- Butch Walker

Seven hours 'till the moon sleeps
I Lose my mind as I drive away.
Your cigarettes are in the back seat
I can't bring myself to throw away

all of the film from the camera that took
all the pictures of the images in my mind.

So I'll drive a straight line
right across the state line,
out on to the ocean,
In a moment I'll be gone
and you wont have to feel torn.

Pass the churches filled with quilted faith;
they send there hangovers from last night.
It wont do me any good to pray, cause even God knows
that you were right.

And I was wrong, and yet it kills me
that my kid will never know me
with another one by his side.

So I'll drive a straight line
when I cross the state line,
out on to the ocean.
In a moment, I'll be gone,
then you wont have to feel torn.

In a moment, I'll be gone;
you wont have to feel torn.

Thinking of you with my last breath...

Always Be- Jimmy Eat World

Could've been a night like any other;
One of us has to drive,
one of us gets to think.
I'll force a laugh to break the silence
It's gonna get harder still
before it gets easy.
You can't keep safe what wants to break.

I'm alone in this,
I'm all as I've always been;
right behind what's happening.
She's all lost in this,
she's all like she'll always be;
a little far for me to reach.

I was just like every other.
I thought I was something fierce,
I thought I was ten times smarter,
love would be something that I just know.
How you gonna know the feeling till you've lost it?
I've been losing plenty since...

Maybe something else I'm missing,
Something good, and your the reason.
It's a dream, but there's a real world waiting.

I'm alone in this,
I'm all as I've always been;
right behind what's happening.
She's all lost in this,
she's all like she'll always be;
a little far for me to reach.

#1 Summer Jam- Butch Walker

Don't put another thing on my plate.
My brain is so full of your face I ache
I counted the hours
since the minute that I drove by you

And I got a scar where she left me,
don't think I'll see her around

So wont you come back Sunday?
Every day's a Monday now that you're gone.
Come back Sunday.
Before I got a minute, the minute was gone.
Think you kinda dug me but other guys are up above me.
Trying to get to you 'cause I let you go.

I like to think I'm a pretty slick guy,
but something in the sunlight between your thighs
turned me into mush with a certified crush on you.

And oh, what a bore I must be.
You're so far ahead of my world.

And it's never been so weird
to be at the bottom looking up.
And I went into this movie of blood and guts
thinking I was the shit, I was all grown up.
And I wonder, if you wonder, what we could be...

I Saw- Matt Nathanson

And it's amazing,
with the look in your eyes
like you could save me,
but you won't even try.
And then you tell me again
how everything will be alright.

And if I told you that I'm sorry
would you tell me that you were wrong?
Or would you hold me down forever
if I came to your for answers?

And I saw
pictures in my head,
and I swear I saw you opening up again.

I'm surrounded, you spill
all alive and brand new.
And I'll forget about you long enough
to forget why I need to

And I saw
pictures in my head
and I swear I saw you opening up again
Cause I would be heavenly if
Baby you'd just rescue me now

The days are
drifting away from me.
I still wake up
burning through everything.
It's all I know, somebody save me now.

And I saw
pictures in my head.
I swear I saw you opening up again.
I would be heavenly if,
baby, you'd just rescue me now.

Baby, just rescue me now.

Iris- The Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
and I don't wanna go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
and all I can breathe is your life,
and sooner or later it's over,
I just don't wanna miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moments of truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
and you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

I just want you to know who I am.