Passion Fails

Tell me what I did so wrong,
tell me how to make it right.
I know I could have made it better then,
but back then, I didn't know how.

I knew that we were broken
so I had to make the call.
My heart kept shaking, burning, breaking
so I just threw it at the wall.

I didn't mean to shut you out
I just couldn't let you see
everything you do to me.
I couldn't let you see this darkest side
of everything I try so hard not to be.
It's so cold in here.

We try to stay blind to everything that happens inside
but that makes for quite a lonely home.
Who do you love when you're coming undone?

So I'll turn up the volume on the speakers,
tell you everything I should have said before;
everything that mattered
that doesn't matter anymore.
But I seem to think more than I act on things.
It's so dark in here.

I've made mistakes that I put into writing
and looking back now, I am all the while crying.
Preoccupied with selfish thought,
my brooding soul is passionate love.

I'll still miss you, I'll still love you,
I'll keep walking through this life alone;
I want for no one else.

I'm sorry for letting you fall so far,
I'm sorry for the grace that I stole from your arms.
Just hit me harder next time, maybe I'll fade away forever.