This is what I would say in my letter never sent

I thought it was all over. I though it would get easy again, and I could put it all behind me; put it all away. Now I know that it can never truly be over. The feelings will never be gone. I am still playing games with myself in my head, like I always did, like I always will. I know that it is a dangerous game, but I cannot lose the friendship I have worked so hard to gain. I cannot lose that love. I try to fight back any valuable inhibition, but it eventually gets the better of me, as it always has. I cannot let this beat me again. I cannot again lose everything that I have, everything that I love, and everything that I am.

Since I met you, I have looked at you as my savior, whether you know it or not. You were a stranger who changed my life the moment that you walked into it. You showed me more than I ever thought was possible, through passion and intensity. I grew to love everything you were. You taught me many things; many valuable things. You are my inspiration. Through you, I have learned so much…

I have learned that we always need to trust in each other, trust in good faith, and trust in trusting.

I have learned that it sometimes takes a broken heart to feel what true love really is.

I have learned that you truly never know what you have until it is gone.

I have learned that there is almost always a second chance.

I have learned that you don’t need perfection, you only need love.

You gave me on of life’s greatest rewards; to know love.

There are still a million things that have gone unsaid, simply because words can do no justice for the feelings inside of them. As this day slowly ends, I am one step closer to understanding what I want, who I am, and what I want to do.